I know that I have only one follower, but I guess this is mainly for me. Lately, and for what seems like a dang long time, i am seriously struggling. Money is always tight, but not to the point where i am going to stress. maybe it is all in my head. school is always stressful but it is nice for me to get out of the house and do something for myself. i love being in school and doing the work (most of the time). it is nice to have that something that is just mine. again i think it might be in my head, my hormones are messed up, or something. it is like i am pregnant all over again (which infortunately i am not), i am so cranky then happy, yelling, shutting down, and just want to wallow in food. cameron told me today that i yell way to much and that it is bad for the kids. i know this and i am not stupid, but i swear the kids don't listen if we talk nice. we have tried it and it honestly doesn't work. the only way i ever feel like i'm heard -- with the kids, family or cameron -- is if i yell. there are so many blessings in my life right now and have always been there, but myself is getting in the way of enjoying the day. i just wish i was like what seems like most mothers, nice and calm, understanding, patient, loving, etc. i know i am a good mother but it hurts me to know that i yelled at my kids 20 times today or 50 times today or whatever. it also hurts that i flick them in their noses, and pop their mouths -- not hard -- when they do something that is really bad. i really wish i had a lot of followers so i could get some tips. not on how to be a better mother but some tips or something that would help me to become more centered, not so mean and emotional and just a better person. i have had counseling, a while ago, and i used the steps i was given, and felt renewed and great. then it seems like time just hit me and i lost all that i learned. again, i know no one follows me but still anything from anyone or even you cherie would help me. i feel so lost as a person that it is affecting me as a mother, wife, homemaker, person of society and whatever. thanks for listening.
kira jo
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About Us
- Muhley family
- I am a mother of two beautiful children. My oldest was born 7-3-07 and his name is Elija Thomas. My second was born 7-8-08 and her name is Marion Joyce. They are my life, my soul, my smile and my heart. Cameron, my husband as of 12/28/05, is a full time student to become a Machinist. I am a full time student trying to become a secondary education teacher. I am almost done with generals then need to get accepted to the college of education, but am loving it. Elija is such a big boy. He is so smart and my big bear now! I never thought he would grow so quick. Marion is just growing and growing. She is the most dramatic little girl EVER, and she is our buggie boo. Her and Elija usually get along. They are truly blessings in our lives and wouldn't change any of it. I would give anything and everything for my babies. I am blessed for these children and my hubby.
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